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Thursday, June 1st, 2006 02:49 pmI hate the way I react to things sometimes.
Like today in law we were doing debates. Sure, I was nervous as hell, but that's never been a big deal. It was going fine, but then rebuttal time comes, everything is ok, and then BAM. I get to the part where I was to bring up Stockholm syndrome and my brain just stops functioning and I just can't do anything. I was freaking out and shaking like a goddamned leaf. I could say it when we were practicing, but when we went against the other people I couldn't say anything about it, and then after that I couldn't say a single thing. I mean, I had points that would go against theirs but I just couldn't say them. I don't know what was wrong with me. It was really scary.
I really hate debating anyway, so that added to it, and then I'm under so much stress about everything... I wish I could take tomorrow off, I would, but I've got a presentation to do for an ISU and I have to go in and GOD. I'm so stressed out.
Like today in law we were doing debates. Sure, I was nervous as hell, but that's never been a big deal. It was going fine, but then rebuttal time comes, everything is ok, and then BAM. I get to the part where I was to bring up Stockholm syndrome and my brain just stops functioning and I just can't do anything. I was freaking out and shaking like a goddamned leaf. I could say it when we were practicing, but when we went against the other people I couldn't say anything about it, and then after that I couldn't say a single thing. I mean, I had points that would go against theirs but I just couldn't say them. I don't know what was wrong with me. It was really scary.
I really hate debating anyway, so that added to it, and then I'm under so much stress about everything... I wish I could take tomorrow off, I would, but I've got a presentation to do for an ISU and I have to go in and GOD. I'm so stressed out.
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